10 Days to Live



Speak the truth even when your voice is shaking.

Honesty is simple but can also be complicated. With a lot of pride and fear, you can never say a truth. Bury a lie with a lie gives birth to another lie and it goes on and on and on until you find yourself unable to move out from that misery. What you believe is true is actually a lie.

So speak the truth even when it hurts.

You will get hurt that will leave you scars after scars after scars but it will heal soon and you won’t have to worry about how once ugly they were. You will bleed but you will not die. But even if you do, you will live.

Speak the truth with faith

Believe in miracles. It works every time. It may not end the way you expected it but the way it has to be. Have faith that everything will be alright. You can hide all you want. You can lie all you want but you cannot never hide or trample the truth. You cannot hide a light even how partially shaded it is.

Speak the truth with strength and courage

Finally, give change a chance. Have the strength to pick yourself up and have the courage to move on and fight the good fight again – fair and honest.

You cannot go back to square one.

I have done so many things in my life that left me scars but I am not ashamed of them because my scars proved that I was tried and still trying. Some are beautiful scars but some are not, they are the reason of my brokenness and I am paying the price. But every time I see them I reassure myself of the possibility of new beginnings and seeing things with fresh eyes.

Do not be afraid and have courage. Be kind to yourself and speak life and positivity. It may be the miracle you are waiting for — to be able to speak the truth confidently and smile.


How it all Began

It started with a thought

then a vision

and then a longing

Then I started to seek,



Then I felt uncomfortable,


and unsure.

I ended up growing cold

and tired

and so stopped.

But I had this thought again

to  finally get up,

pick up myself

and move.

So I journeyed again

and again

and again.

It is Well, with My Soul


You get on my nerves. You cause my heart to worry, my mind to weary; my body to shiver, my soul to quiver.

My emotions are triggered with your slight annoying stare. I couldn’t find any words to explain how deeply distressed I am.

The road is long and my steps are slow, and I want to catch new sight. Soon I stopped and closed my eyes, spread my arms to felt the wind on my skin then breathe.

A tremendous excitement rushed upon me as if the troubles and speculations start to leave me. Leaving what is hard for me to let go is truly hurtful but fulfilling at the same time. Looking back I can say “it was worth letting go”

But the best feeling of taking the road less traveled by many is when you have to taste and see the goodness of life.

“I couldn’t ask for more,” I told myself.

Be the Kindness the unkind people must have

I would always remind myself this phrase,

Be kind, you might never know…the person you meet when you go up is the same person you meet when you go down. You will not always remain on top.


So you must show kindness to people even if they don’t deserve it. Give love without expecting any in return. Forgive even the inexcusable. Show respect, no matter how rude the person is. Be merciful and gracious, gentle and humble even when inside you are raging and wanting revenge. Calm yourself. It will be well.

I am saying this not because I have perfected them. No, I have not and admittedly, I fall short every time.But these are the things graciously given to me – first by my God and then the people around me.

I was shown kindness, though I am not. Loved though all that I am is unlovable. Forgiven even if everything that I have done were inexcusable. Though I was hard like a shell, tough and deep, Jesus and the people do things they shouldn’t have yet still do– they were gentle in their ways, they treat me with respect,grace and mercy. I do not deserve all these, but the sovereign Lord who knows me well, who sees the content of my heart claimed me with victory. He said “Oh my dear, yet you are undone.. I must say, it is done.. It is finished”